I'm Pathetic and I Admit it

My wonderful people, I have a confession to make. It's New Years Eve and I should have a special, end of the year post ready. But guess what, I have no clue what to write!

Everyone's posting about goals and what they achieved this year and all that other wonderful stuff, but I have nothing to add.

I probably should make some goals, but I'm going to be completely honest, I never stick to them. And I know it. New Years goals never really work for me. But tell me something, who does stick to their goals?

And looking back on this year, well I've only been blogging a couple of weeks, so a quick glance at it would look something like this:

This years marks the beginning, the day (13th of December), when I took the plunge and started this blog. It's been a big year, full of highs and lows and a totally of 20 posts. I can't believe we've come such a long way in these months days.

Hahaha, no, that doesn't really work. And I don't really have anything in my real life to look back on which would interest you guys, unless breaking my brother's arm counts (But I've been told I shouldn't be proud of that).

So here I am, stuck with no ideas for the new year, so guys, please take over from my pathetic attempt. What are your goals? Do you find it easy or hard to stick to new years goals? How has your year been? What was your highlight?

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What I Wish My Parents Had Told Me

There is something I wish my parents had told me growing up. Something about myself I wish I hadn't tried to hide, to squash. And it's one of those things which makes me...me.

So what do I wish my parents had told me? Well, the truth is, I wish they'd told me that being a bookworm is cool.

When I was little and learning to read, I had a lot of trouble. I just couldn't get the hang of it. I thought I was stupid and that I'd been doomed to be illiterate for ever.

But then something clicked and suddenly I was reading everything I could get my hands on. You couldn't get my head out of my books.

At first my parents were delighted. Their daughter wasn't so stupid after all. At first they encouraged me. Kept supplying me with more books.

But slowly comments started arriving, 'how many hours have you been reading for?'

'Surely you've read enough for today?'

'Why don't you put down the books and do something else?'

I know they were just trying to look out for me, but I felt that they had something against my books. It got to the point where I was afraid to be seen with a book. I tried to hide my reading. To do it in secret.

I was given the impression reading was a waste of time. That I should be out in the world doing things. That my parents didn't like my books.

This was how I grew up, thinking that being a bookworm was a bad thing. A disease. That only lazy people read as much as me.

I never told people about my love of books. I never admitted to hiding a book under my pillow so that I could read after lights out.

If only I knew what I knew now. If only my parents had told me being a bookworm was cool. If they'd encouraged me to read.

Instead they discouraged it. Forcing me to hide my true self. All their constant comments made me feel I wasn't enough. That I was failing. It ruined my self esteem.

So yes, that's what I wish my parents had told me. No I don't hate them for it. I know they wanted the best for me, but it turns out books was what I truly needed.

I don't know what the point of this post is. To tell you that being a bookworm is cool? That you should never let someone stop you from doing what you love? Or simply to rant about something that's on my mind.

Anyway, if you made it the whole way through this post, then points to you. You're the true friend. And I hope you got something about of this.

Now tell me, what is something you've always loved? And what is something you've always been afraid to tell people about?

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It's Never Too Late for Your Perfect Life

No words today. Sorry, I won't subject you to anymore of my writing for today. *listens to the sighs of relief* But I'm also sorry, because I'm in one of those moods where I need to rant.

It's almost the end of the year, which means looking back. And let me just say, there is nothing more depressing than that.

Everything has felt so busy, so rushed this year. I've had nearly no time. I've panicked that life has been passing me by without my even noticing it.

But looking back, I also feel like nothing has happened. Yes I was constantly busy, but I haven't gone anywhere. I didn't have those huge achievements or life changing events. It was all a bit the same.

It's scary to look back. To wonder 'am I making the most of my time of earth? Could I have done more?'

But to move forward we must look back, know who we are and where we come from. Then we can move on, using this knowledge to make better use of our future.

Yes, it's sad to see lost time, but I believe it's never too late. You can still go out there and do wonders. You can still change the world. Do big things.

It's never too late. Just because this year didn't work out how you'd have liked, doesn't mean your future is doomed. Go out there, make next year better. The best you've ever had.

Never stop striving to make your life better every single day.

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Have a Very Merry Christmas // And Stop Stalking the Internet

GUYS!!! Merry Christmas all you beautiful people. Okay, so how many are you online to read this today? If you're raising your hand, stop, close the lid of your computer. This is a day for those special in your life, a day to enjoy. Don't ruin it with the distractions of the internet.

But, in all honesty, I just wanted to jump in here real fast and say Merry Christmas and have a brilliant day.

No huge post today, I have too many more important things to do, like eating far too much food (especially those chocolates), presents and family gossip time.

So go, enjoy your day and may God be with you.

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A Big Step into the World of Confidence

10 posts. Now 11. 10 days. Now 11. That's how long I've been here guys. Yup, I've taken the first baby steps into the world of blogging. And you know what? I love it so much already. It's truly freeing to be able to spill my thoughts somewhere. Share those random writings I have.
I'll be honest. I've never shared this stuff with people before, not even my ever patient and encouraging brother, Navy.
Yes, I know it's not as good as some peoples. My writing is basic and could do with a lot of improvement, but that's what practise is for right?
However basic, it's getting my feels out. And I have a chance to share my beloved pastime finally. Those thoughts which keep me up for hours at night finally have somewhere to go.
And hopefully it's a place where someone will read them and get something from them. Even if it's just a small smile or a bit of encouragement.
I never thought I'd get to a place where I'd share my work with people. I couldn't have ever imagined letting a friend see it, much less the whole world.
It's a big step for me. Being that shy girl who's afraid of what people might think of her to someone who can share her words with the world.
Confidence is definitely something I've been trying to work on this year, and while I still have a long way to go, I think this year has been a huge step in the right direction.

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Wherein I Have a Mental Break Down

Okay, so things are definitely a mess around here. I've been trying to sort out the design, make my blog look a little prettier than that terrible basic template it came with.

But I have to admit to myself, I'm no blog designer. And this is proof. I'll admit, okay, it looks better. A lot of the links don't work however and it's nothing really special.

How do you amazing bloggers do it? Every blog I see looks so gorgeous. They make it look like this stuff should be easy, but it's definitely not.

Anyway, I just wanted to quickly come on here and explain. Especially as it's probably going to be like this for a little while as Christmas is approaching faster than I feel comfortable.

I still have to buy a present for a couple people *cough* Navy *cough*. I will always admire those people who are so organised and have everything bought and wrapped by now. But I'm very bad at getting my act together and actually getting this stuff done.

Tomorrow I'll definitely have to go out and get this stuff sorted. And get the tree up. And the other decorations. And find the Christmas music albums. Yep, I'm totally prepared.

Fingers crossed I can get my butt into gear and get it all done in time.

Well I should stop sitting here rambling away while my cat tries to eat my hair. I should probably take the hint that she wants to eat and go get some work done myself.

If you have any advice for blog design, please tell me! I need all the help I can get.

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